Him,

I don't know how to put it in words, but there's something strange inside me every time I think about you. I admit that I am the kind of person who has many opposite-gender crushes, yet no one ever makes me feel like you do. It's been 9 months now that I just can't stop thinking about you.I will be looking at you and listening to your voice every time I feel unmotivated. I always smile when I see your face through the screen. I take your every sentence seriously and am trying to get to know your point and think through that. You're my inspiration and motivation. At the same time, you've got a place in my heart, my pure heart. I hope that in the future, when I grow older than this, you are still single, so I can make a move lol. In addition, I think I like you or in love with you maybe, idk.

Feeling bottled up?

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Her.

One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.

MISUNDERSTOOD 🤡

i hope one day you’ll realize i did truly care for u. i promise ure gonna miss me being there. putting up with u, refusing to give up on u. you’re gonna regret everything you’ve done to me, including all the damage you’ve caused. and someday, you’ll turn back and i won’t be waiting for u any longer. i might have been worthless to u, but you’ll miss me when i become priceless to another.

Missing the old days

You know what is the most exited things about high school? Obviously the freedom to show the true colors of yourself with your best friends. I mean real friends. My favorite people are starting to reveal their new version and I’m happy for that. But there is something that is lingering on my mind. Why the group is so incomplete? I really need that spirit that brings up everyone happiness upon the atmosphere. The way we bursted the laugh and almost throwing up the whole meal from tummy. Sometimes, I really wish they wouldn't grow up to be somebody that I feel odd to be around. Somehow, all I can do is to wish them a better environment. And yes most of us now are tearing apart and we didn't know what to do than indulging for what the hell is happening. My regret is that I don’t feel appreciate till the day I had received plain smile without the taste of happiness. New Day, isn't it?

I think I started to have a crush on my friend.

We’ve been hanging out together about 4 years now but he and I never think of anything more than friend. I like to tease him sometimes before about being in relationship but it doesn’t mean I have that kind of feeling with him and I think he feel annoyed about me teasing him but who care lol. For some reasons, I think he’s really hate me at some points because I’m kinda immature and of course annoying and always mad and yes he never ទ្រ me because why would he care if I’m mad? Lol. However, we both still talking and still friend. It just this recently (read the title), just maybe, let’s just put it like this. I don’t think he has feeling for me because he doesn’t really care about me and doesn’t really care to reply to my text for all these years only if he wants to. He probably chat with others because I used to caught him. Or he probably study. He’s smarter than me too. But well even if he also has feeling for me I’m not sure whether it’s possible for us to date too due to some reasons which also include my knowledge, I think, because I’m not as smart as him. And other reasons.

To the woman that dated my ex,

I'm sorry. I should've told you what he's like. I was in your shoes, yet instead I watched you be his next victim. It might be too late now, but know that whatever he said is not true. You were not the reason. When he said it's in your head and that it's your insecurity, know that he meant you're close to catch him. Your instinct was right; he was gaslighting you. When he said it is your fault that it's over, know that he meant it is your fault for realising that you're not the only girl on his chat list. Your gut was right; you deserve better. It might be too late, but I hope this give you closure. You're not the problem, it's always been him. To his new girl, I hope you can escape being his next victim.

Stupid…

Why does girl don’t love someone who love her, but she love someone who hurt her? I wonder why this happened to me? I am always unlucky with love, always always love one side. I try to much to stop my feelings that falling in him but it doesn’t work. I haven’t confess to him yet but I already give up twice because it seems like he will never interested in me. What should I do? Should I move on and find someone or confess to him? I can’t do everything these days , I stuck with this 😭😭 Please help me….!

I was lonely

Rejection is what I hear the most from day to day. Most of the time, I invite friends or more to hang out with me, yet they reject my favor. Thus, I create a new concept where I can live my life happy even if there is no one wants to be around me. It is called date yourself. Go on a trip, shopping, having a luxurious dinner, buying what I love, all by yourself. As I view from this perspective, I feel less lonely and enjoy my day much more.

Right person But not the right time

To the person i have met since 2016 Idk how to describe my feeling right now. You know what you always stuck in my head and heart even when you're gone. What i want to say and ask: - It’s my fault that i rejected you ( At that time , i think be friend is more forever than relationship even i have feelings for you) - I regretted about my decision - I always here for you no matter what and keep waiting you @ Am I your stranger now? Can you guys help me by sharing this post? I really want him to see it. _seeing you happy is already my happiness_