TATTOO
You said my name would be your first tatt, either on the right or left or on your chest. Now I wonder what it look like. Is it replaced by your new person’s name or is it just another broken promise?
There is a guy who is crushing me. We met each other years ago and we never talk and get closed but I know he crushes on me by his actions to me virtually. Actually, I am very anti-social and quiet and it gets very weird and intimidating if I get into relationship with someone. I have been thinking about that guy frequently, and I want to stop thinking about him and I want him to stop crushing on me lol. I don't think I deserve someone though, maybe I don't really like myself. I have never been in relationship before and I want to be forever alone and single in this life. So if that guy confess to me directly one day, should I immediately reject him? I want to friend zone him at first and then keep him as as an older brother. I don't want to hurt him by rejecting him, but it is better to be honest with yourself first. He really deserves someone better than me. Hope that he forgets me completely as time passes.
You said my name would be your first tatt, either on the right or left or on your chest. Now I wonder what it look like. Is it replaced by your new person’s name or is it just another broken promise?
These 3 years not a single day where i wish we would end up tgt but the more i held on to u the more i realized i never meant to be in ur life so i gave up
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Idk where to start so, 2018 the new term start and i got to meet her. She changed into my class with her friends. Her group and mine are two different world from eachother. Actually ik her even before she got to know me. We started studying in the same class, and extra classes. I really like her and i really wanna get to know her more. One day i reply her Instagram story and we got to talk. Later on, she replied my story, and here the our conversation started. We've been texting in Instagram for like about a year. We sometimes flex to messenger. I always asked her to send me lesson as an excuse to talk to her. At that time, those conversations were just normal but i was damn happy because i like her so... Her group and mine are still not boning together idk why but prolly idk lol. We were such a good talker in chat but in person lol awkward affff So 2020, COVID. We were still texting intelegram, messenger and Instagram. She always sent me her fav songs, what she watched on YouTube, forward me food or place or meme content from Facebook to messenger, and also send me video and meme, sth cute on Instagram. I did the same too. Ik you prolly can't feel the feeling from reading this but ... Sorry I'm not so good at expressing So here let me continue Idk but tbh covid got us both close to eachother. We talked everyday, she texted me just to tell it time for extra classes, or else send me food. She sometimes went out and when she's back, she always told me about her day tho i don't ask. Tbh i confused. I myself i know i like her, i mean i have feelings for her but what about her? She did like we're sth. Idk how to explain it all here but later on when 2020 about to end, we don't talk anymore, she just went silent on me and i have no clue what to do till now. My friends all know i like her, they also said they bet her group also know about this but no one dares to say. One of my friends said, I'm too obvious whenever it comes to her, she prolly knows but pretend like she doesn't. Hmm but it doesn't matter anymore. Right now i only wish she and i can still be friends. The thing is i only got to see her like 3 to 4 times in this 2021. And the last 2 times, she didn't even talk to me or even look at me. Heartaches lol. I was there like...? You didn't see me? Or what? She has changed... I mean she's not that excited to see me like before. Before whenever she saw me she always comes to me amd hit me as a greeting hut now lol, even my face she didn't even look at. You might wonder what happened between us. Seriously i have no answer cuz I don't even know what's wrong, she just gone silent and ... You won't see this anyway so imma just write it here
Why I said it is green flag but actually it is a red flag? Yes, we both can see it is as green flag when we both call every night and it’s kinda understanding and sweet at first three months. The day I started talking to you, the chemistry feels so right, and a clicking. My brain started to pumping a serotonin and dopamine. But, I may click the wrong tap, not that you treated me wrong, yet you love me more than yourself. It’s real attachment and attention that you don’t want to untie. It’s red flag because you don’t love yourself enough. You love me too much that you upon your whole happiness on me. You get jealous easily. You wish me to be your shooting star all the time. Yes, I’m not perfect, I made mistake that I ignore you sometime and want my space a lots. You are overthinking what if chat to other guy? While I’m not. It’s unfair that we are happy together, but you are hiding those sad moment in your life alone. I love you and I want to know what’s going on too. It’s so hard for us to leave each other while we both still love each other. I hope this break up taught you to love yourself enough to discover the sun within yourself and shine in kaleidoscope ways, so you don’t need others’ dimly light to guide you. As, you finally can firmly stand on the ground and feel happy again. I’m always grateful that you were part of my life. Thank you for your pure love and understanding. Hope we meet again when you are able to love yourself more. I still love you, and wait for you.
Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me. Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But looking back at it, I still found myself searching for you everywhere I go, skimming through every picture of u I saved, imagining how we’ll be if we’re still tgt these days…..and that’s when I realized I’ve never step out to anywhere & move on as I’ve once committed at all cuz without u everywhere I go everything I do seems to have a missing hole & got me feeling empty. How we ended up still aches in me up to these days that it got me thinking why does it has to be that way when everything has solution but we decided to end it all up instead of solving it. Still friend. Still viewing each other’s stories.Still stalking.Still wondering what u’re doing, what u’re up to, how’ve u been. U are the reason I opened my heart & also the reason no one will see it again. Admitted it was indeed a bad timing between us back in the day but I still preciate how we tried to stick with it for so long even tho we both kno we won’t make it after all. As for every memories we’ve created, every step we’ve walked through tgt, every problems we’ve faced & solved, every place we went. I’ll save a spot for every of that cuz I dun want to 4get you & every piece of us. Last words for u: If there’s a day u decided to turn back, u’ll always see me here waitin for you cuz I don’t want no other shade of blue but u. #S to #R
I might be clingy, childish, and crazy sometimes. I have two personalities - a boy and a man- I know I demand your attention sometimes because All I want is to be with you- I know You love me and vice versa. I trust you and I don’t wanna lose you. Anyway we are trying to make this work and I love you to the moon and back ❤️
ខ្ញុំហត់នឹងការធ្វើមិនដឹង មិនឮទៀតហើយ។ អ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាយល់យ៉ាងម៉េចបើកទូរស័ព្ទសង្សាខ្លួនឯងហើយឃើញរូបអ្នកផ្សេង? មិនត្រឹមតែប៉ុណ្ណោះ មានរូបអាក្រាតកាយគេទៀត។ គ្រាន់តែគេLikeរូបខ្ញុំច្រើនដង គេប្រច័ណ្ឌហើយ តែពេលគេវិញគេសុំទោសហើយឲ្យខ្ញុំលើកលែងទោសរួចបំភ្លេចវាចោល។ ហើយវាក៏មិនមែនជាលើកទី១ដែលវាកើតឡើង ខ្ញុំហត់នឹងធ្វើមិនឃើញ មិនដឹង មិនឮតទៀតហើយ។ He’s the one. I swear to god that he’s the one. But now what? Staying with someone who you don’t know how many nudes he sees and saves just for the next time he jerks off or worrying he’ll fuck around when you’re not around. And you’re telling that i can’t trust him enough that he won’t do it when I’m not around? Kill me now.