Have you ever felt a wind of change? Have you ever noticed that one moment when you are all-in to do something for that someone? Have you ever thought of the one that changed you? I have been asking myself the same questions overtime. I always asked myself why; why did I have to change my own characteristics just to get along with someone else? And the only answer I could think of is “she is the one”. She is the one who taught me patience, the one whom I pledge my loyalty to, and the one whom I care for the most. I recalled that moment when one of my closest circle ask me: “… do you have someone in your eyes?”, and I responded “Oh yes! Her… the one from several years ago.” That response sent shockwave to the rest of my circle. They immediately questioned me of the progress I made. My answer disappointed them a lot. “It is a long story,” I said. Why haven’t I move on? The only reason I haven’t move on is that I could not find someone else who possess those traits of hers. It is true that I am a flirtatious young adult who fond of girls, especially those in my age or older, but when it comes to the real one — the first lady — I would stick to that girl. Stupid, right? I realise and admit that I usually fell in love at first sight. A lightning storm that usually ended up in a mess. And it has been years now, and we never talked, we never engaged in a long conversation, although time gave us many good opportunities to start things up. At some point, I even think that she hates me… like… she hates me so much that when we see each others, our eyes avoid one another, trying to avoid any contact. Things went back to the ICE AGE, when coldness and ego took over our respective selves. Even our zodiac signs are completely opposite from each other. Maybe I was right to avoid her? Or maybe it was just a new beginning? Or maybe it was a hint to something mysterious? Who knows! So what did she do? She dragged me out of my old self, my arrogant self. I left my assertive way of life, the aggressive behaviour behind, and embraced change. By looking back at my own past, I saw my old self fallen in an endless pit of darkness. Thanks to her presence, I walked on this path. Oh… and she was also the one who indirectly encouraged everyone else to discover beyond the boundary. But that does not mean every one of my activity is done on her behalf. It is a big NO. I could say that she is a guardian angel, who is loved by many of her inner circle, respected by many others, and adored by someone like me. My message would be: Let’s find a good time to talk this out. We have lots of things to catch up to. Shan’t we? And even though, we grow apart our inner little children call out for one another. You are not alone.
I fucked up again. Choosing the same old path and now suffering same old mistake. Risking myself to accept that love again. Open myself to trust again but now all I got is this god damn pain. And now I think I am the REAL problem :)
Thanks for always taking a good care of me Thanks for always stay by my side when time get hard Thanks for understanding me Thanks for loving me Thanks for everything U’re the best . Yet u leaving me now and I still didn’t know how to move on yet . IF leaving me made you feel good , DO IT baby . I pray for ur happiness everyday and night . I’m glad by Seeing you happy even with or without me 🙂
I have met someone for almost 1 year and I started to feel like he is warm when I stay with him without any love feeling. I don’t feel on him but I just wanna stay with him, talk to him, play with him as normal but more than other. I keep thinking about him everyday, checking his personal life even his ex. But the matter is that I don’t feel on him, I don’t want him, I ask myself again and again but the answer is nothing. Moreover I don’t feel excited or shock when I meet him but I want to talk or to see him. So Is it called love or normal?
I went over to a camping trip sometimes ago and I felt in love with this one girl. We still meet each other sometimes. She was spectacular, the most amazing person I've ever known. She was compassionate, kind and understood me more than anybody ever did. She has shaken the my wall I've built up to never love anyone too much so I can never hurt. I want our relationship to develop further but I'm not sure about myself. I'm just a broken person, depressed, wasted. I don't want to fix this issue by having another person to fix me because that's not the right way to do. Any advices?
Why can’t I hate the one who hurt and broke my heart into pieces? I can’t even erase your name from my head. I am fu*king hurt when I hear your name. Stupid me hoping to start over again with you.
we're not officially in a relationship yet but it feels like a break up? we haven't met each other outside yet, but why i feel so attached? i try to draw us the line, and tell myself that we're hopeless and better off being friend; we won't work out but why i still pray that we could start over, and fix what we lacked of? i know you lost interested in me but you're the one who make me believed at first that you're the right one. you said you're not like them yet you still did. prolly, it's my fault that fall so hard, and expect so much. i try to ignore you, I stopped reply to your message not because I hate you or want to cut you off, but it's because you don't really care. you show no interest in talking with me at all. when it come to you, i'm still being squishy asf. and yes! the more i talk to you, the more i feel hurt. you seem fine because you feel nothing at all. it's hard right now, but if one day i will get over it just as you said. let's be friends again when that time come. from #K to #J
Disclaimer: If you're sensitive to any pessimistic contents, please skip this. You would not want anything to discourage you. I do not know where to start or what to write but here is my story. I'm born in good family, somehow i feel my life is not. I do not if i am overthinking or i am being too emotional. I am youngest child, my age is over 2 decades, my parents are over half of hundred. I am just still live by my parents, accomplish nothing but troubles. My parents spent nearly a million of dollars for my education somehow i feel to learn n.th useful to make them proud. My friends at this point, they made the name for themselves, they have a family. I feel like i am a lose. i fail as a child, as brother, and as a friend. I do a lot of things to disappoint my family. I know my family is well-known but this burden has pressure me more since i have a lot of expectation from people. In life, i want to have friends to hang out with but no one want to be near me, i had friends only in high-school that was because i see them everyday after that we cut off the contact. Even with my parents, i seem to grow distance, i could not do anything to help them. I want to be near them but i do not know how or where should i start. People might see me as out-going, friendly, extrovert but inside i am just a boring guy, emotional sh**, loner. I feel like darkness is my favourite place, like Batman but Batman is rich while i m poor. I just want to run off from home, and cut off the contacts just to free everyone's burden. I see myself with no real skill or ability even now i am just too afraid to be in love too, i know no one wants a useless guy. When people ask me, why do not i hang-out with my friends? I do not want to answer them, just because they do not like me, i do not blend in, or i have no friends. I know nothing beside being in the gym, fashion, and beauty. They are useless since I am not a model. It contributes nothing as incomes, only splurging. I need someone to understand me, lend me their shoulders, and telling me "Everything is alright", and somehow i just want to be alone. I sometime feel numb from sarcasm. I am also afraid to be in love since i got rejected on every of my confessions, i feel like i am not good enough for anyone, i just afraid to be in love, afraid to hurt someone too. I am just too insecure about everything. so far, i think i have reached my opinions. I do not know what to say anymore Thanks for reading
I fell in love with him three years ago and until now. I secretly admire him from afar, i love him since he had no girlfriend until he had a girlfriend and broke up again. I ignored so many people for him but look at me, i’m single:) i really wanna confess my feelings but what if he rejects me? Cus i swear i always put my pride first, plus i’m so picky and i’ve always rejected people who have a crush on me, Call me stupid but I reject 5 guy becus of him, yet he knows nth. I just found out recently that he has a girlfriend for almost a month, but that’s ok. i’m willing to wait again, i won’t mess with their relationship.. i’ll love him in silence. Whatever, seeing him everyday at school is enough, even if we don’t talk with each other, sharing a small daily life with him is my greatest joy. My question is, should i confess to him at the end of the year? Cus, this is our last year as a high school student, it wouldn’t hurt if he rejected me cus we probably never met again. *i’m crying