I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.
Man , it’s hard , having a crush on you for almost 2 years and im having a heartbreak 😂 , like dude i know im not pretty , aint ur type but like i just want you to see . abit in me are fine . seeing your story make me curious who’s that lucky girl that make you feels the butterfly back . I hope you’ll wait for my confess xd
I know you don’t have such a feeling and thought about me like I do to you. Yet, I think you deserve to know that someone out there considers you’re special to her. I haven’t had feeling for anyone for years. Then you appeared and began messing up with my head. I don’t expect anything from you because I’ve been spending too much time alone that I’m not sure whether this is the feeling of “fall in love” or it’s just some entertaining feeling to my boring life. Besides, I’m not even capable of loving anyone, so I don’t want waste my time on this stupid and hopeless idea. Yet, I just want you to know that I really appreciate and cherish that one precious day you gave me. I hope you can find someone you truly love and return it back to you the same way. From now on, I’m going back to my world, and I just hope that you still consider me as a friend. —t.o.
How to choose BTW the one who take care on you and they will come when we need the warm vs the one who advise us e.time but they didn't know how we need people to warm up us.
I dont know how it started and why it turn out this way. I wanna keep you at any cost even as the closest friend but it seems like I could never be enough for anyone. I dont want you to call me "best friend" since the last time someone called me best and all they do is ghosted me and I dont think u want me to be ur best friend too. I dont even have a chance to ask what is going wrong since I respect their space but you know deep down inside I wonder about all those memories, all the hardest times I have faced and shared with you, is it real. I dont know but I feel ache every time ppl say I was the best thing that happened to them, did they really mean it or just bc I was there for them whenever they needed me. I miss every game we used to play, meme we used to share, chessboard when u ask me to play chess. I could not listen to our fav song anymore, could not open up to anyone anymore. I wonder is it for character development since I never dare to go out of my comfort zone,u know how hard it is to go out and make a new friend at this age. no one pay attention when i say words only you pay those small things. can we just go back to those old times?
To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL
Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?
I have been friends with this guy for a few months now, but I only recognized him for about 2-3 weeks. I think I am developing feelings for him. The main thing is that he is very active and caring, so with all of his kindness, I tend to think that I am special, despite that, he does that to literally everyone. Should I risk everything and ask him to go on a date or something? I know that he will definitely friendzone me because I joined the "GANG" now.
To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...