Unrequited love or One-sided love

Definition of one sided love is a feeling of loving someone who doesn't feel the same for you. Yess, just a short title you can feel how much it hurts. "Destiny" this word we use it as an excuse to make it look like a bridge that guide me to you. Do you remembered how we first met? How great that we study at the same faculty and together as a classmates and more greater is that we always work together as a partner of the assignments. So since than we started to talk about lectures, study together, and help each other. How fun when we flirted with each other and it was a great feelings when our classmates started to pair us. However, at the end, I am the only one fallen into that trap. Why? Have you ever had a good feeling towards me? How about those flirting messages we had? You knew how I felt to you. You pushed me away. You ignored me. Finally you stopped chatting with me. And currently, I am just someone you used to talk to. They said stop chasing people who doesn't love you. If they love you, they will, you don't have to try so hard to get them. I am FINE ❤ Just please remember that this person always cares about you from here where you pushed me behind.

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To the man who would put me first before anything else

I have never realized how painful it is to be avoided by someone who once could easily brighten my day up by just showing up in front of me. To the man who would put me first before anything else, do you recollect the moments we spent together? How have you been doing after the day we no longer talked to one another? Could I ask for those days to happen once again? And could you call one last time so that I don’t regret not picking up your phone the last time you called me? You have every reason to hate me, but you can’t expect me to do the same. I’m good at hiding my feeling but that doesn’t mean my heart is not breaking seeing you attempting to avoid me at all cost.

I wish it were possible

The late night messages I used to receive from you. The restaurants we went to together. The time we spent chatting with one another. All of these are just memories now. You always stared at me, and when I asked why were you staring at me, it caught you off and you just finished with a smile and said nothing. My heart beat faster than usual whenever you smiled because it somehow made me feel nervous not knowing what you were thinking about me when we sat in front of each other. I always wondered if you felt the same way I felt about you. When you confessed, I was on cloud nine. You were a gentleman, and you constantly showed me what all boyfriends should be doing to their girlfriends. Everything turned into a dream. You already have your lover. All I could think of was how good it could be if our relationship were possible, and how would she felt if she knew how nice you had been doing to me. You made me fall madly in love with you, but at the same time hate you. I hate that you were lying and not telling me the truth. I hate that you were being so good to me. I hate that I think about you all the time even knowing that you already have your significant other. I hate that I still miss you.

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Frozen Memories

I can’t believe we’ve come this far. We got to know each other; take care each other, share our things, favourite food/drink, favourite songs/movies, our gaols, what we love, what we want…. we also went on adventures together with happiness and love like people in relationship do. But… We choose to be senior and junior. The distance between you and me it never seems to disappear, you and our memories are frozen in my heart. There are many things I don’t want to remember, always remember. If we confessed our feelings before this happened, it shouldn’t be this hard. If you just told me the things you’ve been through, we shouldn’t be strangers like we are right now. 😔 I miss you.

Stop pretending

Faking your care toward someone is the cruelest thing you can do.

Respect my boundaries.

A couple days ago I accidentally see my boyfriend’s liked video on TikTok and surprisingly that most of them are girls. He also followed them on instagram. I thought they’re his friends, classmates…but I as wrong. He saw them on TikTok and then started following them on instagram. To be clear, this isn’t about liking the pictures, it’s about the fact that I’ve asked him to stop. Clearly it crosses some boundary to me. He also told me that “ it’s not a big deal, I’m being insecure, every guys did that “. Does all the guys do the same ?? Following random girls on instagram after they have seen them on TikTok?? P.S we’ve been dating for a decent amount of time and I regretted that I checked his following on instagram just for a sake to break my heart…

To the Ex, who say សុខចិត្តលះបង់

After all you have done to me, and you say សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយជួបមនុស្សល្អ? Remember the way you still keep in touch with your ex (up until now) that hurts me so bad? No matter how many times I tell you to have limit (by understanding the reasons, I agree to accept the relationship), you keep ignore my frustration, and say I don’t have trust on you. Until the day I ask to break-up, you only asked that whether I think clearly about the decision? You didn’t try to keep me, and I was not your choice. You trying to get back with me a FEW TIMES without any changes. I gave you chances to make it up and wanted to know what have you done to get back the relationship, but you have done nothing. The last one was, you came back and decided to agree with my conditions, after 2 days you said you couldn’t do it and ended it. After one and half month, you came back again. Am I just a thing to you? Where is my value? How do you so confident that I still give you a chance? Why are you so selfish? And after I raised up the question that why should I give up other good people for the one who has broke me a lot of time and never give value to me? You said បើគេល្អយកគេចុះ សុខចិត្តលះបង់ខ្ញុំអោយមនុស្សល្អ lets me tell you, that’s not call លះបង់. For sure, I haven’t move on completely, but I also need to keep my value, and self-esteem. I gave too much value to you, now it is time that I value myself. Lets the Karma do the work. #ks

How it went

Yes! You ignore small things I raised. So whenever things went wrong, I told you so. I ask for things to be fixed. I didn’t stay quiet. I told about whatever disturbing my mind. But you seemed to be so careless. I was wondering is that how you love someone? How could you not give a damn about everything? I was devastated because of your replies: "ប៉ុណ្ណឹងសោះ" , "ចរិតខ្ញុំតែប៉ុណ្ណឹង" , "រឿងចឹងក៏គិតដែរ",etc. So instead of considering changing or solving, you just let the argument go overnight, and act like nth happened in the next morning. That's how things get worse. And the worst is when you finally admit that you can't change! That was when I finalize us cuz you didn't commit to be fixed. All you said was " That is how I am.". People changed for betterment, especially lovers make changes to adapt with one another. But I learned that trying alone is not gonna make things last. That was enough (your answer)! You don't know how to love, or maybe you love in other ways which I might not have the ability to understand your love language. All I know is if I were you, I wouldn't let my lover go through the night where everything weren't even given a reasonable explanation. You overdo of "This is how I am.". Sorry, but I lose you to find me. So do you! You lose me to mature your thoughts. "Love once again when you become a man." -anonymous