Meeting you was a nice accident

It’s been 6 months since we've been apart. I’m happy for you two that you’re still getting in touch with each other. Do you know? things become worse day by day because the memories are killing me. I can say I cried a lot when I went outside without any of you. I always go to the place that we used to go, and I know it was a terrible decision how I ended the trio with my stupid reason.I hope you’re doing great living your best lives without me. Sometimes, I wanna text you guys and ask if you’re doing okay but I don’t want to bother you. I still miss our friendship, I miss how we used to sing together, I miss how we went to the café together. Take good care of yourselves. To my little crab eat your meals properly and to my big gorilla don’t always go to bed late. I love you guys and I will always do. I’m glad that I met you. #From_H_to_L_and_R

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Sunflower

This sunflower is wilting… so love you, for me. Take care of your heart and soul. Some couples just don’t work out and… that’s okay… I guess…. as long as your life works out fine. At the end of the day, you are still a part of me. Thank you for showing up back then… I enjoyed my time with you… hope you did too. If ever our path crosses again, I want to know that you’re succeeding in life. I want to hear about your dream come true. My darling, you are not cursed nor broken. You are just bent as you were adapting to life circumstances. You are perfect the way you are so let nobody tell you otherwise. Love you, for me.

Regret

I lost my virgin at the age 21 years old. Do u think it is so fast? And How do all of u guys think of me? ភ្លើតភ្លើន? សប្បាយភ្លេចខ្លួន? ខុសប្រពៃណី?I lost it to my bf and he never think about future with me. Emmmm! Now I feel like I dont want anyone anymore beside building myself to be strong and I am sorry for my family that I am not a good daughter! Really sorry.

What is forever?

What does it mean when someone used to promise that we will be forever together. But then how long is that forever? Maybe I define it wrongly by myself….. his meaning of forever is different from mine…… Maybe I’m too dumb to believe in such words, such promise.

Sunflower

We’ve broken up a little over a year now. Why do you want to act like lovers, but afraid to stay? Feelings remain and I don’t want to cut you off. I long for you... sometimes it hurts. You’re here but you’re not here… We still talk but nothing is clear. You know exactly that my arms are always open. You can keep on letting me down and I will still believe in you. I guess, I can’t build a man when you don’t want to be one. Anyways, take care while we’re apart. Hope to see you in June

I'm starting to lose track of my feelings...

I'm not sure what's wrong with me at the moment. I used to expect my lover to be concerned about me, to adore me, to be childish and clingy in the same way that I am. And it didn't even happen on the day I expected it to, and my lover doesn't seem to mind what I said. Most of the time My lover alway keep me waiting , late text or call and even leave me alone for long. And am so upset with this attitude. My lover’s gone from being a don't care to wanting to spend time with me, talking with me, and appreciating me a lot now. And I'm not really that excited and happy anymore. I don't feel as if I'm excited anymore, which seems normal to me. Is this because I used to have high expectations on my lover, or because I'm gradually losing interest in my lover ?

វិបត្តិ

ទម្រាំមានមនុស្សម្នាក់ៗដែលចូលមកជីវិតយើង ធ្វើឲ្យយើងមានការចាប់អារម្មណ៍ម្តងម្តង មិនងាយទេ ពិសេសគឺកើតជាក្តីស្រលាញ់រឹតតែមិនមែនជារឿងងាយ ព្រោះមនុស្សធ្លាប់មានវិបត្តិស្នេហា មិនសូវហ៊ានបើកចិត្តទទួលអ្នកថ្មី ៕ សង្ឃឹមថា អ្នកបន្ទាប់ជាអ្នកចុងក្រោយទៅចុះ គ្មានពេលវេលាសម្រាប់ស្វែងយល់អ្នកថ្មីទៀតទេ #November

Old notes#2

Number 11 becomes my fav cos it’s the time I keep checking if you’re still awake like I am, if you are thinking of me like I am; it shows that I still care for you even before or after that 11 number, or maybe it’s just an excuse that I make to lie to myself that only when the short and long hand of the clock point to 11 is the time I think about you, when actually I’m thinking about you every hour which I can barely say the word hour cos every second seems so long let alone an hour, when actually I’m waiting for the time to arrive at 11 again so that I can lie to myself again that I only think of you at this 11:11. #lovefailed

If you are happy, I’m happy.

One of my male colleagues and I are so close, but the closest thing I mentioned was that I'm the one who's trying to get close to him. I think I like him a lot, but I'm not daring to tell him. I don't want to ruin the relationship between us. It was good enough for me to have him during my stressful times, happy times, busy times, and anytime I needed him. I'm so grateful. Even if in the future you're not mine, I believe you will be a good husband to your future wife like how you're treating me these days. I'm a bit jealous of whoever deserves you, but if you're happy, I'm happy too. Day by day, my day becomes more and more colorful and shines since I have you by my side. You're so good for my mental health. It was so boring when you were complaining about this and that, but it is so empty without those complaints. I want you, the person who is giving me these good feelings, to feel them as well; to feel loved by someone; to feel treated well; and to be my lover, so I don't have to worry about your future wife. Thank you for being there for me during my hard times. I really appreciated every moment I had with you.