I wish I would have realized that earlier

I'm not about to keep explaining myself, my feelings, my boundaries, and my actions to somebody who is intent upon misunderstanding or ignoring me when I do. I cannot communicate with somebody who is not open to exchanging. Communication is what you do and how you behave, not just your words. Did you ignore me all day to play video games? Well guess what? This communicates with exquisite clarity that you values video games more than spending time with me. Does you ogle other women? you’re communicating that you’re disloyal. Communication with someone who is committed to misunderstanding you or taking advantage of you, is absolutely useless and you’re better off preserving your energy and moving on. Communication is happening 24 hours a day, whether the you realizes it or not. Everything you say, everything you don’t say, everything you do or don’t do...ALL of it communicates something important. Even the most nuanced micro-expression on our faces are also the forms of communication. Actions speak louder than words.

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Being ghosted

I used to be mad. I used to look back and wonder where I went wrong, and took all the blame. I wondered why would you ghost me like I never mattered. One day our friendship was flourishing–filled with laughter and late-night text messages and venting–the next, it was gone. I used to wished that our long/ funny conversation will come back. It hurts to know that we used to be so close, and now it’s like I don’t know you at all. I feel as though you don’t want me anymore. What do we all talk about, do we talk about past things to catch up on, or do we just act like no time has passed?. We’re not as close as we were before. There are days when I am so happy and that the person I want to talk to you is you. I want to tell you every detail, the entire story, and I want you to listen. There are other days where that high isn’t there when I feel low, and I just want you there to listen or to talk about anything else. Those days are when I miss you the most.There are some secrets that I could never tell another person, but I can easily tell you. Some days I wonder if we will ever be that kind of friends again. Sure, I look back and still smile on the times that we have had, the moments we had shared, the jokes, the laughter that filled our friendship. I have no idea how you feel about our friendship right now. But I am here, in case you make that step back. I am also here, wishing nothing but the best for you: laughter, that all your dreams come true, and all the happiness in the world. I’d like to let you know that our friendship meant everything to me. Thank you for the good memories that you leave behind. I hope wherever you are, you’re happy with yourself. I hope you have found peace with your problems–the people who had hurt you in the past. I hope you finally find something you love and let it consume you. I hope you find a guy who truly treats you the way you deserve.

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IT'S A MATCH!

IT'S A MATCH! Things escalated and we were now getting to know each other on our personal socials. I am a person who wasn't really looking forward to other people's messages before. With her, things were different.. She would often send me posts related to cute things that couple do. It was so cute, I swear. I was really looking forward to our first date together. At other times, she would send me posts about insecurity, loneliness.. etc She mentioned she was insecure and have a fear of her loved ones leaving her. It makes me want to care for her, shelter her.. It felt like I began to really fall for her, as I was really excited whenever we talk or text. A few weeks has passed since our first encounter, her replies started to take a longer time than usual. I was curious as she said she is done with Tinder in one of our calls before. So I went back on the app with an anonymous profile this time.. and to my surprise, I managed to match with her again. There she is, with her cute，flirty replies.. I felt a little jealous.. It felt like we had chemistry, but you started to drift slowly apart from me. Things were really going south for us. I questioned your late responses and you replied with having no time for a relationship. I guess, that's a fair answer. All the best from me, kon kmeng. #K

Die

I cant stop thinking about suicide. I don't know. There's nothing much about the problem i've got but i just dunno how to solve it and i cannot think how to too. I cant tell anyone anymore, just like they'll just judge me and thinking im attention seeker. (Even here now, i have no confidence writing this without thinking they will judge me) Stuck on anything, and my mind keep telling me "if you die that'll be solve cuz it's you, you are the problem." I really am maybe... I'm sorry if I ruin your day, really sorry.

You’re not standing there

Every time I drove by your house, I always stopped and stared, hoping to see you standing in front of the entrance, waiting for someone to answer the door like you used to. I remember when I brought you home and your mom made me a tuna sandwich and told me to eat a lot so I could grow faster. I miss the taste of her food and the picture of you standing calmly in front of the house. Today, I passed by your house again but I didn't see you there. The neighborhood was quiet; too quiet that it gave me a strange sense of calmness. It was like a void in my heart — calm but empty. I don't know why some people say that loss gets easier with time. It's been years, and the fact that I still haven't gotten used to your absence is a nuisance. Maybe in another universe I can still see you standing somewhere and waiting for me. But here it all ends too soon. So, make sure to have a good new life out there and promise me to love yourself well. I’ll love myself too. -owl

Wish I could uncrush u

Dear crush, ik ure in love with somebody who ain’t me, yet I hope u’ll never be lonely like u always told me n realize this world as a beautiful place. I hope she’ll take good care of u n I wish u live in this love life ever after. My happiness is seeing u happy. Love u my dearest crush:) #m

Pain

Since you left I never had a good day. I changed. The pain change me. I let the pain control me. I keep compare myself to others. I can't make myself happy. I lose interest in everything. I tried to find someone to replace you. But I just can't get over you. My heart still want you. But ik I have no more chance. I couldn't even have a second chance. I'm trying to love myself. But why is it so hard? I never been like that before. I want myself back. I regret that we used to date each other. But I never regret the time that we used to spend together. I missed you. But I don't want to miss. I want to forget you. I just wish I could end up my pain. It's really annoying. I'm still love you as always.

Unrequited love or One-sided love

Definition of one sided love is a feeling of loving someone who doesn't feel the same for you. Yess, just a short title you can feel how much it hurts. "Destiny" this word we use it as an excuse to make it look like a bridge that guide me to you. Do you remembered how we first met? How great that we study at the same faculty and together as a classmates and more greater is that we always work together as a partner of the assignments. So since than we started to talk about lectures, study together, and help each other. How fun when we flirted with each other and it was a great feelings when our classmates started to pair us. However, at the end, I am the only one fallen into that trap. Why? Have you ever had a good feeling towards me? How about those flirting messages we had? You knew how I felt to you. You pushed me away. You ignored me. Finally you stopped chatting with me. And currently, I am just someone you used to talk to. They said stop chasing people who doesn't love you. If they love you, they will, you don't have to try so hard to get them. I am FINE ❤ Just please remember that this person always cares about you from here where you pushed me behind.