I want you, but I need peace of mind

We dated twice but were never in a relationship, yet the feelings that we shared, the sparks that I felt, it was like no other. You were good but I have to move on because I know having you will never bring me peace of mind. And I never wanted that.

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A day my heart torn into pieces.

Your last text! Hi I have something to say.... I want to make something clear about something that I assume we both know.... i saw your video and i am pretty sure that I am the one who cause you to become like this... i am so sorry if the action that i express may lead to your wrong interpretation, that on my side. I want to make things clear as soon as I realize you don't think me just a friend, however it might ruin our friendship which i am not looking forward to.... you are a great person you deserve someone that truly for you, you don't need to wish that you were others.. you are great the way you are. You might not meet the one yet. But for a person like you, you deserve this whole world and someone that you truly deserve. I felt really guilty to be honest that we came to this point that you are suffering, effecting you mentally which I have never intended to..., i should have told you earlier than this... sorry but we could be no more than friends. If you don't mind I would be prefer if we remain just like before. I can not stand to see someone suffering because of me. this might hurt now but hopes it fade away as time goes by. Hope you understand and i hope i made things clear for both of our sides. Thank you for being the best supporter, helper, friends and adviser.

- More then friend, Less than lovers

Incapable to keep you by my side but just to let you know that my heart was once yours . - To Sok Heang

Is it okay to miss someone very badly that you barely know

I can’t do anything right. He always pops in my mind and I can’t stop thinking about him.

3years of us

We met at 2019 but now look at us , we’re just strangers with some memories . First I really want to be his girl best friend , but once upon a time I think I have feeling for him not just friend . I am distancing myself from someone I love. Until now I just can’t get you out of my mind . Thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most . 🫀

My Bullshit

I'm sorry that you have to deal with my bullshit. I didn't realize I have a lot of bullshit. I'm not that type of person, I swear. You raised your voice saying “ I'm dealing with your bullshit everyday, dealing with your bullshit is tiring. I thought you were not that type of person.”. I'm sorry, I was just telling you how my day was like how you always tell me about yours. I didn't mean to rant on you or maybe I sounded like one and if so, I thought you would listen to me and comfort me like other couples do but it's okay as long as you still love me, I don't mind. I was blinded by the illusion of you that I created in my mind.

Have you met the one who is "better" that your friends always said "You deserve better" yet?

Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?

You will lost the moon while counting the stars

Bae, I wish one day you can figure out that you can find a lot of stars that is bright as the moon but you’ll never seen the moon that is never give up on you in every the dark night. So thus, Take a good care of someone who truly when everything is still fine. Don’t leave them behind until they’re no longer love you, don’t be regret over the thing that you did. I bet once they left, They’d definitely never get back to somewhere that is full of pain. Can you remember there was a person who always beg and fight just for your attention? I guess, you obviously think that they just want the attention but the reality is they only want to spend sometime with you. You’ll never understand how hard it is trying to chase after theirs lover.

How it went

Yes! You ignore small things I raised. So whenever things went wrong, I told you so. I ask for things to be fixed. I didn’t stay quiet. I told about whatever disturbing my mind. But you seemed to be so careless. I was wondering is that how you love someone? How could you not give a damn about everything? I was devastated because of your replies: "ប៉ុណ្ណឹងសោះ" , "ចរិតខ្ញុំតែប៉ុណ្ណឹង" , "រឿងចឹងក៏គិតដែរ",etc. So instead of considering changing or solving, you just let the argument go overnight, and act like nth happened in the next morning. That's how things get worse. And the worst is when you finally admit that you can't change! That was when I finalize us cuz you didn't commit to be fixed. All you said was " That is how I am.". People changed for betterment, especially lovers make changes to adapt with one another. But I learned that trying alone is not gonna make things last. That was enough (your answer)! You don't know how to love, or maybe you love in other ways which I might not have the ability to understand your love language. All I know is if I were you, I wouldn't let my lover go through the night where everything weren't even given a reasonable explanation. You overdo of "This is how I am.". Sorry, but I lose you to find me. So do you! You lose me to mature your thoughts. "Love once again when you become a man." -anonymous