I want you, but I need peace of mind

We dated twice but were never in a relationship, yet the feelings that we shared, the sparks that I felt, it was like no other. You were good but I have to move on because I know having you will never bring me peace of mind. And I never wanted that.

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To the guy I love most, Sophea.

YOU FELL OUT OF LOVE when I am still in love with you, I became a one sided love without realizing. Remember the last time you said you love me? It's been too long since I last heard your voice. I miss that. You said you were gonna call me after you finished your work but you never did, till now. Still waiting for your texts like how I used to. I'm not blaming you. You said you were gonna take me to a burger shop ( I stopped eating burgers since I thought I would have it with you, screw me), when you finished all the work, drinking our favorite milk tea, going out for dinner. I know you were still in love with me during that time but I didn't realize that I would become a burden after time passed. My notifications didn't make you feel better, you ignored me. My presence doesn't make you feel excited, you don't wanna talk to me. Everytime I ask, it annoys you. You could clear off your schedules but you didn't because you thought I would ask you to spend time with me and it annoyed you or maybe not because I was never really on your mind or I was just nobody. Sorry, I have no idea what made you become like this.

I think I started to have a crush on my friend.

We’ve been hanging out together about 4 years now but he and I never think of anything more than friend. I like to tease him sometimes before about being in relationship but it doesn’t mean I have that kind of feeling with him and I think he feel annoyed about me teasing him but who care lol. For some reasons, I think he’s really hate me at some points because I’m kinda immature and of course annoying and always mad and yes he never ទ្រ me because why would he care if I’m mad? Lol. However, we both still talking and still friend. It just this recently (read the title), just maybe, let’s just put it like this. I don’t think he has feeling for me because he doesn’t really care about me and doesn’t really care to reply to my text for all these years only if he wants to. He probably chat with others because I used to caught him. Or he probably study. He’s smarter than me too. But well even if he also has feeling for me I’m not sure whether it’s possible for us to date too due to some reasons which also include my knowledge, I think, because I’m not as smart as him. And other reasons.

“B” V&V 🤡

F u for making me feel like this. I told u I’m not experienced in this kind of things but still u did that mind game, and when I start to treat u how u treat me u got all mad and offended. And it really sucks when everyone tell me I should hate u but I just can’t. F that really

Trade-off

This is a story of a unpopular boy who barely made any friend amount his classmates. One girl noticed him for being himself. Destiny brought them together then the boy have to leave the girl for 6months.However, the girl was still waiting for his return and carrying on their relationship. Good things won't last long, the time had passed by the boy's career had started to get busier and busier that's why he barely made time for his love's one. Because he wanted to achieve his goal by getting promotion so he could have more time for her. Then the boy had finally achieved his goal yet his relationship had already ridded apart. At the end he was able to achieve his dream but not his love. He had more time but had no one to spend with.......... someone who always supported and motivated him to catch his dream was gone. So that is an opportunity cost between trading off your heart and your dream : )

New peace, new problem

At times, people mention how time heals, and I used to wonder how easily they could say that without understanding what I was going through. My problems felt small in the grand scheme of the universe, yet they were enormous in my miniature world. Despite this, I pressed on, with an inner longing to experience the beauty and terror of life. It's remarkable how unpredictable our futures can be. The me from last year would never have imagined the life I am having today. I've found peace within myself and with those around me, but as things improve, new problems arise to occupy my thoughts. I remind myself not to let these concerns disrupt my newfound peace, knowing that when I look back on my current self a year from now, these little details will likely be forgotten. So, yes, time does indeed have a healing effect even if it doesn’t look like it would help.

Little crushyyy

Hi Manil, I know you won’t be able to see this message anyway but I kinda have a little crush on you and I’m still insecure about my look also my personality. You kinda deserved a sunshine types more than the grumpy ones like me. :)

Why

Why do I still love you more and more even though we broke up 2years ago? Why can’t I just move on like the way you did? Why do I still cry over and over again for you?បងលួចមើលអូន but Why did sometimes អូនមើលបងវិញ ( we’re in the same class)? The way you looked at me, it drove me crazy. I‘m still waiting for you អូន even though I know it’s impossible that you will come back...Daisuki da yo my love

now or never

I'd say that I've been in this relationship for almost two years now. Everything started great; it is something that I've always wanted. I was really happy back then with the occasional phone calls, going on dates, and those fun things we did together. But things took a turn after we graduated from high school and covid hit. We didn't do those things anymore. I started pointing out the issues and asked him to put more effort into our relationship. He never bothers to change and always has excuses to the point that I no longer nag him about it. This went on for a year until today, and although I wanted to end things a couple of times, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I am unhappy, yet I am too afraid to break up with him. Recently, I discovered that I like someone. I haven't felt this I-got-a-crush-on-someone kind of feeling for so long, and to be honest, I feel so alive. My gut feeling told me he might like me as well, and I kind of feel guilty about this. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I also want to pursue my happiness.