I'd say that I've been in this relationship for almost two years now. Everything started great; it is something that I've always wanted. I was really happy back then with the occasional phone calls, going on dates, and those fun things we did together. But things took a turn after we graduated from high school and covid hit. We didn't do those things anymore. I started pointing out the issues and asked him to put more effort into our relationship. He never bothers to change and always has excuses to the point that I no longer nag him about it. This went on for a year until today, and although I wanted to end things a couple of times, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I am unhappy, yet I am too afraid to break up with him. Recently, I discovered that I like someone. I haven't felt this I-got-a-crush-on-someone kind of feeling for so long, and to be honest, I feel so alive. My gut feeling told me he might like me as well, and I kind of feel guilty about this. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I also want to pursue my happiness.
I am the confessor of #KJ0217 I just wanted to say that I made it. It was super awkward at first but then things turn out better. BIG Thanks to those who give me tips cuz it really helped me a lot!๐๐ป Proud to say I am dating my dream girl โค๏ธ
แแแแปแแ แแแแนแแแถแแแแแพแแทแแแนแ แแทแแฎแแแแ แพแแ แขแแแแแถแแแขแแแแแแถแแแแแแถแแแแแ แแพแแแผแแแแแแแแแแแถแแแแฝแแฏแแ แพแแแพแแแผแแขแแแแแแแแ? แแทแแแแแนแแแแแแปแแแแแ แแถแแแผแแขแถแแแแถแแแถแแแแแแแ แแแแถแแแแแแLikeแแผแแแแแปแแ แแแพแแแ แแแแแแ แแแแแ แพแ แแแแแแแแแทแแแแแปแแแแแ แพแแฒแแแแแแปแแแพแแแแแแแแแฝแ แแแแแแแ แแถแ แแแ แ แพแแแถแแแแทแแแแแแถแแพแแแธแกแแแแแถแแพแแกแพแ แแแแปแแ แแแแนแแแแแพแแทแแแพแ แแทแแแนแ แแทแแฎแแแแแ แพแแ Heโs the one. I swear to god that heโs the one. But now what? Staying with someone who you donโt know how many nudes he sees and saves just for the next time he jerks off or worrying heโll fuck around when youโre not around. And youโre telling that i canโt trust him enough that he wonโt do it when Iโm not around? Kill me now.
it's so weird to no longer have someone in your life. whether it's a friend you don't talk to anymore or a partner you've broken up with, it's so weird to be left with all of this knowledge of someone else and have no use for it anymore. like the way they drink their coffee, their favorite meal when they're sad, a story they told you abt their childhood when you both saw something that reminded them of said story so now you're reminded of it too when you see that thing. and to have someone out in the world with so much intimate and casual knowledge of you and you wonder if they feel happy or sad or uncaring when they see something that reminds them of you too.
To all those who in relationship out there. Have you ever ask your partner everyday or every time whether they still like you or love you? Like โDo you still like me?โ What make you ask that? And for those who receive this question from your partner, what do you think when your partner ask this question everyday?
แแพแขแถแ แแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแแ แแแแปแแแนแแแทแแแแแแแแขแแแแแ แแแแแแแแถแแขแแแแแแแพแแถแแแแแแปแ แแแขแแถแแ แแแแแทแแแแแถแแแแถแแแแแถ แแแแถแแแแแแพแแแแแนแแแธแแปแแแ แแแแปแแแแแแถแแแแแแแแแแแ แแถแแฝแแขแแแ แแแแแแขแแแ แแแแแพแแแถแ แแทแ notification แขแแแแแแแแแแพแขแแแแแแแแผแแแแแแแแแแปแ แแแแปแแแแแแถแแ แทแแแแแ แแแแแพแแขแแแแแถแแแแ แแทแแแพแแแนแแ แทแแแแแแแปแแแแแแทแแถแแ แทแแแแแแแแ แ แแแแแแแแปแแแทแ แแทแแแถแแแแแพแขแแแธแขแแแขแแแแแผแแแแธแแแแแทแ แขแถแ แแถ แแแแปแแแถแแแปแแ แทแแแแแแปแแแแแแแถแ แแ แขแแแแแทแแแถแแแขแแถแแ แ แพแแแแแปแแแแแแถแแแแแแแแแแแแขแแแ แแพแแแแธแแแปแแแแแแแถแแ แแนแแแถ แฅแกแผแแแทแแขแถแ แแผแ แแปแ แแแแแแปแแแแแ แแแ แแแแแแแแผแแแผแแแแแแพแแแแแแแแถแแแแแขแแแแแแแพแแถแแแแแแปแ ๐โฅ๏ธ
Iโm a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each otherโs company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stopโฆBut then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like Iโm left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , Iโm just upset that I canโt provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I donโt know if you know that Iโm upset with that but since Iโm not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one dayโฆ
I used to be that type of person too tho:). I find it easy to cope stress on my own but one day you might just losen out for a really big time. So, it's better to let your friend know even if it's hard for you to open up. Just spit a bit even if it's seem nonsense to your friend. This is weird for me to share my experience with a stranger xD.
What does it mean when someone used to promise that we will be forever together. But then how long is that forever? Maybe I define it wrongly by myselfโฆ.. his meaning of forever is different from mineโฆโฆ Maybe Iโm too dumb to believe in such words, such promise.