I don't know
''It never stops hurting, does it?" ''What?" "Giving someone the best of you and watching them choose someone else."
Long long time, I have been waiting you until now. We gonna meet soon.
''It never stops hurting, does it?" ''What?" "Giving someone the best of you and watching them choose someone else."
we ended just like that. you know, when i look back on the memories we have, both the good and bad, i just realized it was the most vibrant and most alive i’ve ever felt. You said i’m a mature girl. You’d believe that i would feel nothing right now, that I’d be moving on with life. And I too, think that i would be fine for now. Maybe i’d cry later, for days on end. I know that i’ll break down every night, reliving you in my head. I would try so hard not cry when I see you. Then when i look back at this later, I’d break down all over again. I love you a lot, always will. I guess this is it. Our story ends here. I’ll wish you the happiest in life, always. L
If you ever lose trust in your lover, would you end the relationship? I remembered working more than eight hours a day just to save enough money to buy him a gift for his birthday and ended up finding out that he cheated on me. Even though he changed, for this one year, he became a completely different person but still... I can't trust. We fight due to my overthinking and untrusting him. Our argument worsened his health and I really want to let him go but at the same time, I want to hold on to him.
Even the title is “ Our Story “ but you have no idea about it. I wrote it my own , you are the main lead who, the main actress which is me fell in love with every piece of mine whereas you don’t know you are the main lead who the main actress adore so much. No matter how cold or heartless you’ve been to her. You mean a lot to her and for you , we just mean to meet. I was a barely page in your book but you filled every space in mine. This is the end of the story that never start but here I am still admiring you from far apart.
To the friend I used to valued... Months ago, I had a female fiend who I talked to daily, I kept listen to her rant day to day, support her during her bad time. It is not that I had feeling for her or something. I just valued our friendship. Being friend is meant to valued each other, aint it? Then one day, she told me that she got into a relationship. I congratulated her and keep texting her as we used to. Then she barely reply to my text. It is not that I got jealous or something. But the friend who you trusted, you supported most, valued the most, turned their back after got into relationship as if you meant nothing to them. Was I been used? Was I have done something wrong? Is it mean they don't want you anymore? Or is it mean you are out of their used? I don't know. After that, I decided to silently walk out of her life. Knowing that my effort has no meaning to them.(what's suck most, is she never asked or notice my absence) I still hope you have a great life, live happily. From the person who out of your used.
If you and your bf live in the same borey (literally 4 streets from each other) but he never ask you out also he rarely replies your text (4-12 hours — that’s ghosting yeah??) That means he doesn’t really like you right? The answer is clear as day yeah?
I'm sorry that you have to deal with my bullshit. I didn't realize I have a lot of bullshit. I'm not that type of person, I swear. You raised your voice saying “ I'm dealing with your bullshit everyday, dealing with your bullshit is tiring. I thought you were not that type of person.”. I'm sorry, I was just telling you how my day was like how you always tell me about yours. I didn't mean to rant on you or maybe I sounded like one and if so, I thought you would listen to me and comfort me like other couples do but it's okay as long as you still love me, I don't mind. I was blinded by the illusion of you that I created in my mind.
Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?