Still hoping it’s us at the end

Alright so……where should I even start? It’s just that the memories and all the moments we had are too much to be organized and spoken by words. U’ve gone, i should’ve step forward too, but I couldn’t because I keep looking back at all the sweet talks we had, the love we spread, the scent of yours, especially the face I once fell for. Like, How could I walk myself forward imagining not being able to have u by my side like I used to? I wouldn’t wanna be cringe and creating poetry about our stories iswtg, But ever since u’ve left, I look for u in everyone, I look for u at everywhere and that shyt sucks, cuz I should know u wouldn’t think of me that way like i do. There’s none a day I didn’t think about u. There’s none a second I didn’t miss u. We might not make it works out this time, nevertheless let’s meet again next year, next 5 years or maybe next 10 years. I would love to start things again with u and try to make it all works out like I used to dream of the two of us. I’m wondering Where did we went wrong? ✌🏻This one is for u guys who are reading this, I wantin to share abit of what i regret and I hope u guys won’t do it like I did. The reason we ended up is not for the reasons of cheating, 3rd person, or things. Looking back at it, I was also part of the problem because I realize that “a love works out when both of us love each other the same way” while b4 I was the type of “a love only work out when the guy gives love more” that was completely wrong. U girls and guys should stop if u have it that way. U love em? Show em ur all. U care for em? Just go ahead n ask em how their day went.U want em?Fight for it. I’m pretty sure a word of yours will surely brighten their days up.This is how rlts works, if u are selfish or still expectin to gain more than u give, then don’t ask for love. Last words for him: Till this day, I still miss and miss you. What if in the next few years and I still can’t get over you? I don’t want to forget you n I hope u won’t forget me too.

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