Being reject is bad feeling to accept the fact that she doesn’t even have a feeling but in this stupid mind still have a light of hope that one day if I am not giving up I would can take her heart. Have no choice 🙂
Your friend left me and let me live with anxiety, and you has the audacity to wishing me a miserable life? You should have know by now that your friend left me alone when I need her the most 🤣 I wish you and your friend live the best life you guys always dreamt of
why is it too hard to be myself?
he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.
Dope I am a kind of person that would build the walls instead of the bridge because I used to experience some trauma events in the past. [newLine*] [newLine*] They used to call me “ sensitive, dramatic, self victimized, stupid, etc.” And here I am, being a cold hearted person ever in my life. I don’t like the version of today’s me yet, I am still glad that it kinda makes me stronger and be more careful around my surroundings. Running away from my own feelings is one of my coping mechanisms since it is the best way to do so when it comes to expressing emotions. I wanted to open up and have the healthiest relationship with others but the dark inner part of me is still keep telling me that they will judge me in every possible way that they could also the people that I expect then to be will be leave me eventually anyway so instead of being my real self, I just show them what they wanted to see from me.[newLine*] [newLine*] Losing the ones that I love is also a tragic cause for my mental health too. My mom passed away since I was 6 years old and I hadn’t had the mother-daughter moments yet and it really broke my heart ‘til nowadays. So instead of crying, I usually hide my true emotions and keep moving forward when I was still not healed from what broke me in the past. I used to held grudges, always get jealous when they got what I wanted, they have the best relationship with their families, they have a strong self confidence and many more. Very toxic person I could possibly find. [newLine*] [newLine*] But here I am, after all what I have been through both mentally and physically. A cold hearted b*tch also I am still keep finding out who I really am and what is my purpose of life. I still feel guilty when I hurt the ones that love me so, but nothing is permanent anyway so I’ll live the best of my life instead of pleasing other people. [newLine*] [newLine*]From, thyka. ♡︎
Have you ever seen couples whose have healthy relationships that meant together, would have happily ever after but out of sudden decided to go to separate way yet still loves each other?. Until these days I have seen a lot of couples that break up because of incompatibility. Not until it happened to my sister and I started to question that “Is there as such a thing as right person at the wrong time?”. Meeting the right person at the wrong time can be life changing when it doesn’t work out the way we desire. It’s harsh to accept but I wish that they would have a happy ending. Seeing them from strangers to friends to lovers, then strangers again, I just hope the cycle brings their souls together one last time.
You finally open up. Just like I alway wish for! Because I don’t know where did we go wrong that you choose to push me away and end it. I alway hope that we still have hope. I hope that one day you will realize and resolve thing between us. Because I am sure I don’t deserve it, being push away like that, cut out like that and I am sure I did you nothing wrong. Even if there is, at least we should give it our best shot to make thing better or to make sure that it can’t go on. Don’t true love story at least should end like this? Now that the barrier is open, my wish is granted but my hope is dying once again. Maybe it not going to go as I expected. Maybe you just want to officially show that you have someone new standing in my place.
In the future, If we ever cross paths again, please fall in love with me once more.
You’re the only one that can make me smile through my hard time, make my gloomy day like the most beautiful day, and the only person that I wanna share everything with. But… you don’t feel the same as me, you’re waiting for someone else's message, you’re still sad over her even though you know that she has a boyfriend. Well, I’m still watching you, worrying about you secretly, and still waiting for your text;)) From stupid me C