Love
Is it even real?
Hey, I don’t know whether you’ll see this but I hope you won’t. Anyway, I just found out that u muted me on social media when I did literally nothing to you. Why ? I just completely on my own space but when I found out about it, my heart just break into pieces. I don’t know who am I to you, whether I’m annoying to u or else. I’m completely not okay as you muted me and treat me this way. I cherished our friendship so much we’ve been friends for many years, we spent our wonderful teenager life together. I remember I had you, and u know u had me too. It’s just a friendship they said, but to me it’s a really pure and beautiful one I had with you but since you did this to me I might be somehow annoy u therefore, I will no longer post or share anything on social media… so if u see this it’s up to u whether u want to unfollow or block me whatever makes you happy but remember one thing, as I figured it out I can’t stop myself from crying as I don’t know that is how u treat me as friend for years, as someone who used to comfort, help, and yeah u helped me a lot too. We shared tons of memories and it left me heartbroken and speechless of how 2years of miscommunication lead us to this. You know I have trust issues when it comes to love but thanks to you now I have trust issue in friendship too. Good luck!!!
Is it even real?
ខ្ញុំព្រមនិងទទួលយកគ្រប់យ៉ាងជាអ្នកព្រោះខ្ញុំស្រលាញ់អ្នក ខ្ញុំព្រមទទួលយកទំនាក់ទំនងនេះព្រោះខ្ញុំដឹងថាមានតែនៅក្រោមឋានៈនេះទេីបខ្ញុំអាចនៅក្បែរអ្នក យកចិត្តទុកដាក់នឹងអ្នក បារម្ភពីអ្នក នឹងសង្ឃឹមថាថ្ងៃណាមួយពួកយេីងអាចរីកចម្រេីនលេីសពីពាក្យនេះ ខ្ញុំដឹងថាខ្លួនឯងល្ងង់ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំសុខចិត្តល្ងង់ដេីម្បីនៅក្បែរអ្នក ការស្រលាញ់មួយនេះវាមានន័យណាស់សម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ ព្រោះខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែចង់នៅជិតអ្នក ឃេីញអ្នកជោគជ័យ គាំទ្រអ្នក នឹងមេីលថែអ្នកក៏ខ្ញុំសប្បាយចិត្ត ទោះលទ្ធផលបែបណាក៏ខ្ញុំសប្បាយចិត្តនឹងទទួលយក You're my priority #boii
Should have known u never loved me cus u never said “i love you” it’s always “love you”. U said I was controlling, stalking, when all I did was ask for your social acc to follow. U never go out with me until it’s our fifth months together and it was only that one time that u hang out with me. U don’t care when it’s my birthday, u don’t care when it’s our anniversary. U always ignored my chat for hours, days and when I asked abt it u always get offended saying ure busy and stuff. I stopped starting convo cus my texts were ignored anyways. And when I ignored u the same way or worse, u get mad? Did u consider my feeling when I sent 5hrs ago but last active 5mins ago, sent 6 hrs active 30mins..? It was always like that. I endured it all, all of ur bare minimum, breadcrumbing, cus I love you too much to let go. And in the end U decided to abandon me. What’s the point of a relationship when ur partner can’t even discuss anything with u and saying they don’t like conflict? And whats the point when ur partner trust others’ words instead of yours? I wanted to know whether U trust me and u chose to trust them. Did u think I don’t know what they were doing? I just wanted to find out whether u trust or love me at all. And I got what u’ve been thinking all along, u never wanted me. :) U just obeyed. :) Should have noticed when I said “I love you” and u replied “I like you”. And I should have trusted my guts and ended thing earlier when I had to spend Christmas and new year alone. Well guess that’s an experience I should have as I have never been in a relationship. Honestly, I really hope u get ur karma. I hope ur daughter meet s’o exactly just like u so u know my father’s feeling when he decided to let u have me but that’s how I got treated. Not sure if u know who I am but I really hope u do. :) From we’re soulmate to our personalities don’t match.
Thanks for letting me to be part of your life even if my role is too short for the chapter you've been through. Still, I'm glad that somehow I made you happy in the things I did. Be strong always, don't let your guard down. It’s okay to be sad after making the right decision.
i wish we knew each other through the internet, i wish you see me as how i want other ppl to see me, i wish we didn’t take the 2 step to talk to each other. i portray myself as a perfect pretty girl on the internet bc who doesn’t want to be perfect and pretty but in reality.. it’s different and you see that in me, you see the broken bits of pieces of me and all the thing under that perfect mask… and you still except it. i still wish we met in a different way so you don’t have to see me in this state, bc it hurts me knowing i let a person in my reality to suffers with me and that person i truly cared and love for. i wish i have more time to fix me before going to you.
So how do you describe your current lover who still screenshot their ex's recent photos? what if the feelings are still there or was it just my stupid imagination? lmao, isn't it funny they keep on telling you they love you, but still do things like this? i mean do you really love me or just for fun or just to forget your ex who has a better body, face than me?
Disclaimer: If you're sensitive to any pessimistic contents, please skip this. You would not want anything to discourage you. I do not know where to start or what to write but here is my story. I'm born in good family, somehow i feel my life is not. I do not if i am overthinking or i am being too emotional. I am youngest child, my age is over 2 decades, my parents are over half of hundred. I am just still live by my parents, accomplish nothing but troubles. My parents spent nearly a million of dollars for my education somehow i feel to learn n.th useful to make them proud. My friends at this point, they made the name for themselves, they have a family. I feel like i am a lose. i fail as a child, as brother, and as a friend. I do a lot of things to disappoint my family. I know my family is well-known but this burden has pressure me more since i have a lot of expectation from people. In life, i want to have friends to hang out with but no one want to be near me, i had friends only in high-school that was because i see them everyday after that we cut off the contact. Even with my parents, i seem to grow distance, i could not do anything to help them. I want to be near them but i do not know how or where should i start. People might see me as out-going, friendly, extrovert but inside i am just a boring guy, emotional sh**, loner. I feel like darkness is my favourite place, like Batman but Batman is rich while i m poor. I just want to run off from home, and cut off the contacts just to free everyone's burden. I see myself with no real skill or ability even now i am just too afraid to be in love too, i know no one wants a useless guy. When people ask me, why do not i hang-out with my friends? I do not want to answer them, just because they do not like me, i do not blend in, or i have no friends. I know nothing beside being in the gym, fashion, and beauty. They are useless since I am not a model. It contributes nothing as incomes, only splurging. I need someone to understand me, lend me their shoulders, and telling me "Everything is alright", and somehow i just want to be alone. I sometime feel numb from sarcasm. I am also afraid to be in love since i got rejected on every of my confessions, i feel like i am not good enough for anyone, i just afraid to be in love, afraid to hurt someone too. I am just too insecure about everything. so far, i think i have reached my opinions. I do not know what to say anymore Thanks for reading
Have you ever waited for days just to tell your favorite person about your major life decisions or even some updates that you thought would excite either of you? But every time you tries to have that conversation, they just killed the vibes by acting like you’re annoying and instantly ignored you for hours. I was wrong that I thought we were close, so close that we can share everything. I don’t know what went wrong between us but I hope you’re happy, doing fine. I realized soulmates couldn't just be lovers but actually someone you called best friend. From someone who used to tell you everything because I trust you.