That was a lie .....
i love you but the fear of not being good enough is keeping me from staying by your side. i wish i didn’t have the insecurities that i do, i wish i felt more confident, i wish i didn’t have to be afraid everyday about being less than perfect, i wish i wasn’t out of your league.
I used to be considered as “ugly” (got bullied for being overweight, etc. even adults used to do that to me :D ) that really destroyed my self esteem. Although, I lost weight and take care of myself and is considered as pretty now but still the permanent mental damages are there. I had developed eating disorder, social anxiety, etc. I fake being confident but the anxiety, the trembling, and panic attack always happened. And because of that anxiety that fear of being judged I think a huge misunderstanding was made. Sometimes I really wish I could just communicate better instead of always being quiet. :)
If you and your bf live in the same borey (literally 4 streets from each other) but he never ask you out also he rarely replies your text (4-12 hours — that’s ghosting yeah??) That means he doesn’t really like you right? The answer is clear as day yeah?
Why did you leave me like that? How could you start over with her? Do you ever feel de ja vu? Do you feel the guilt? Why did you treat me this way? It wasn’t in our promise. What we had plan why did you do it with someone else? Why do you have to ruin me this way? Idk anything. Idk why you did this to me. But one thing I am sure of is my love for you have never been less than hers.
I want to apologize for my mistake. I was wrong my dear that I asked for a break up. I was short-tempered and didn't think wisely. As for now I miss you so bad, think about you every night. I miss your face that I used to see. I miss your hair I used to touch. I miss our memories that we'd done together. I miss this feeling when I have someone by my side. someone who truly love me. I feel so guilty and lonely. It's ashamed to ask for a second chance. I wish you all the best of luck and maybe meet someone who could treat you better. Im sorry :((
... but could never have. We met around the end of 2016. Our first interaction is still somewhat feels recent to me. I bet you don’t know, but you always have a special place in my heart ever since the first day we met. Knowing you is a true blessing for me. We met in high school and then continued to go on same university. At first, I didn’t really like you that much. But, strangely enough, you’re always there whenever I face problems. You helped me, you supportEd me. You were just being you, the kind and supportive you. It was me that took it the other way around. You know, I grown up with no many affection or love. So, when anyone do me good, I get attached easily. However, all of this liking you alone thing is hard for me. It’s been five years already. I think I’ve got enough now. I should move on. That’s why I changed shift to have space from you. Because, I don’t think I can move on if I just sit there and see you almost everyday like that. It’s been months since we last met. Even though you’ve never contacted me; from time to time, I still think of you and try to talk to you. I can’t say that I’m completely moved on from you. But, I can say I’m doing well in moving on. So here is a short message for you: be happy and healthy. Goodbye, my five-years love:) #myfatThor
I can easily forget someone who loves me but I can’t easily forget someone who doesn’t love me.
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