Maybe i'm happy, maybe not.

I've had several relationships. They are of different life lessons. But good or bad? Honestly, I don't know. Few years now, I've had my eyes on someone. Talked once, wasn't really a conversation. Friends told me to go for it, but in my mind I just feel like there's no chance. Somehow this one-side, distanced love doesn't make me sad or depressing. Nor happy. I feel like knowing that she exists is good enough for me to live my life. I don't know if years ahead I still feel the same. Maybe this is selfish, maybe this is me settling down, maybe not, I don't know.

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

Should I believe my instinct?

After turning 18 years old a day ago, one of my sister’s friends became very touchy towards me. I still remember on my birthday party, after I drank I went to sleep and he came near me and started to hug-sleep but not to hard since my sister was there too. I felt uncomfortable with him after that but decided to ignore it since I have known him for awhile. Yet, on the next day of my birthday party, I went to the bathroom and I saw his phone hanging on his pant. I was very shocked back then but still I am trying to ignore the facts that whether his intention is good or not. Should I ignore it or believe my own instinct ?

2025-08-14

Hi Mishi :3

I love you XD

2025-08-14

❀️‍πŸ”₯β€œB” - T

I think you don’t even know that β€œB” is the nickname I put for you, it’s like 3 in 1 β€œBabe, Bong and your name”. Now you’re just β€œBong” like everyone else, you’re not my β€œB” anymore. You know I actually notice how you started to lose interest. I’m a person who always stay quiet so when I see that you act like that I started to detach myself but still it hurts, it hurts so bad when you finally decided to ask me for a breakup. I prepared for it for months but when it really happened, I still can’t quite grasp the situation. Honestly, I’m so jealous of other couples they share with each other everything while you.. you’re so closed off. Whenever I ask about sth you always divert the topic or just ignore the questions. FYI, when I asked i alr know the answer. (β€œFBI friends” I have them too πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ) I act like I didn’t notice tho cus I hate arguing. Well, whatever I hope you’re happy. And I hope you’d at least give your next girl the bare minimum. Please treat her well. Don’t let her beg for your time and attention like I had to do. React on her posts, post her, take her out, you know the simple little gestures. From: T πŸ₯°

2025-08-14

A Tip from PhD in relationship

One Tip I have learnt and I wanna share: Before you let someone into your life, ask them this question β€œ Do you love yourself enough?” Because only the people who love themselves, can give love.β€οΈπŸ™‚ If they couldn’t love themselves, all they can do it depends on your love to have their happiness and they couldn’t give you the love you deserve, and if you couldn’t satisfy them, they will cheat by finding other to full fill their need β€οΈπŸ–‹ Hope everyone find a significant other and treat you right, don settle for less❀️🌟

2025-08-14

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2025-08-14

Words

Sometimes the one who said the words never really remembered it, but the one who listened did. That's a tragedy.

2025-08-14

Im still in love with her

since we broke up, i have always missed her no matter whose im with. i used to be so happy that we broke up but i guess not anymore when i see her with someone new, we have been broken up for more than 2 years but i still can't forget her. Can somebody tell me what's wrong with me ?

2025-08-14

Mr. Leica

I know you don’t have such a feeling and thought about me like I do to you. Yet, I think you deserve to know that someone out there considers you’re special to her. I haven’t had feeling for anyone for years. Then you appeared and began messing up with my head. I don’t expect anything from you because I’ve been spending too much time alone that I’m not sure whether this is the feeling of β€œfall in love” or it’s just some entertaining feeling to my boring life. Besides, I’m not even capable of loving anyone, so I don’t want waste my time on this stupid and hopeless idea. Yet, I just want you to know that I really appreciate and cherish that one precious day you gave me. I hope you can find someone you truly love and return it back to you the same way. From now on, I’m going back to my world, and I just hope that you still consider me as a friend. β€”t.o.