Pretend to be stupid

As an insecure gf and having trust issues, I have an undercover ig acc to stalk his ex. Just recently, she posted about her new bf in her story. Later that day, my bf posted some sad songs about ex and some sad memes, his chat becomes dry for quite a few days and he told me he wasn’t feeling good lately and need some times for himself. He ghosted me for a day now, I know he might be sad about other things or might going through a hard time, so I’ll just leave him some space. But as an overthinker, I feel like he hasn’t moved on from his ex and he’s probably processing his feeling from her being in a new relationship, but I don’t want to make a wrong assumption especially at the time like this. I’ll just pretend I don’t know anything… deep down it’s hurting me…

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