My first real love

Hey, I hope this message reach out to you in any ways. Ahh I seriously don’t know where to start. I remember the first time we met though screens. At first I thought you were just joking around. I never thought that I would fall for you that hard. It took us a week of talking stage and we started dating. To be honest, I had never felt that kind of heartwarming love from any guys I met out there. You were the first person who make me feel alive and know exactly that true love does exist. I know I’m the one to blame. I took you for granted, not knowing that you’ll soon lose interest in me. You did gave me signs. But I ignored it. You reassure me everyday that you love me, you care for me. But I didn’t believe that because I thought you still have feelings for your ex. I love it when you call me “ Babe “. I can still hear you calling me that. Day by day I tried to forget you. Besides all the good memories we had together always hit me up. I was stupid for not keeping our love last. I was stupid for not acknowledging the signs that you have given me. At the end of the day all I got was sorrow. You remember there was a song called strange by celeste? It goes like “ Isn’t strange how people can change, from strangers to friends, friends into lovers and strangers again.. “. 13-11-2021 was the day we decided to walk different path. I don’t blame you for catching feelings for her. It was my fault for making you falling for her. If I was good to you, you wouldn’t have fallen for her. I’m sorry I wasn’t at my best version back then. But no I won’t blame you. And again I had never thought that you would walk away from my life. You were the only person who make me shine bright like a star. Right now, you’re not here anymore. I miss you every second, every minute, every hour and everyday. Hoping that you’ll come back. But I know that you won’t. It has been almost 5 months now and I’m still in love with you. Although we can’t turn back time, however I wish you’ll find someone who is loving and will love you unconditionally. All the best!

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Ex's Lover

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Friend-zone

I fell for you friendliness but things got complicated, we would flirt with each other, we went to places with each other and I thought we really had a connection. But the friendliness that I fell for became a problem, yes I became jealous. I thought I was special but I noticed that you treated other girls the same so I slowly back away and moved on. I dated someone else and slowly lose feelings for you, until it was our senior year that I fully moved on and focused on my study and relationship. Things were great until we met up again, I heard you’re dating someone new and you weren’t afraid to show her off. We stopped talking for a while and the next thing I knew, we get to talked again and open up about our feelings, you said you liked me too back then. But now it’s too late. To be honest, I’m quite happy for you. I wasn’t bitter or jealous but from time to time I wondered, what could have been if we were honest about our feelings. Then we lost contact again, I’ve broken up with my boyfriend back then and focus on my study, I didn’t plan on dating anyone after that but deep down a part of me still wondered to those good old days, the places we went to, and funny enough I forgot about you. I never got to say sweet words or appreciate your action but thank you for being the best year of my life, I was genuinely happy. A friendly advice to whoever is reading this, if you like someone please tell them, you either get accepted or rejected but at least make your feelings known to them<3

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Sunflower

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Double Standard !

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