A normal man
I tired of everything now. I always try my best to be perfect and accepted by everyone. But now I just tired and don't want to do anything.
Funny isn’t it ? I thought were supposed to work on our problems. and stay friends forever? people say you’re toxic and such but i still defend and stay by your side . I’ve done bad things in the past but I’ve let it go and learned my mistake and I was hoping you’d do the same. I’d never knew you’d give up on us so easily. I’ve always put friendship above relationship cuz i know i can move on from guys i dated but not the friends that i’ve shared memories with. It’s okay na, I forgave you, live well and be happy na, I’ll be supporting you and cherished the friendship we had. Stay happy and healthy, I won’t be there to see it but i hope you achieved your dream<3
I tired of everything now. I always try my best to be perfect and accepted by everyone. But now I just tired and don't want to do anything.
"Why did we break up?" It has been exactly 49 days since the day you told me that you feel off and you cannot continue this. I've been questioning myself and there were a lot of question marks in my head. Back then to day one, you told me I was your everything and your life would be hell without me. I told you that my previous relationship gave me a lot of traumas and I was scared to start a new relationship because once I love you, I commit and put 100% feeling and effort into it. You promise and you were being vulnerable to me. I decided to trust you and love you wholeheartedly. Our relationship was so pure, lovely, cute, happy until the very last day. The day that another part of me collapse. The day that every promise is broken. The day that you gave up on me. How could we suddenly break up? You gave me the love that make me feel everything then suddenly it dropped to 0. It is sting no matter how much many times I am trying to apply the medicine. It's difficult to picture it without that person because we were having a dream together and I already pictured you everywhere with me. I can't help but think about you in the middle of the night. I can't help but fantasize about a time when everything was fine. Again, I am living in a trauma that haunt me every single day. A trauma that told me that I would never be enough for someone even I keep hearing you deserve better but deep inside me told me that "IF I AM ENOUGH, HE WOULD NOT GIVE UP ON ME." Thank you for giving me love that I always want to feel but never want to leave. It gave me pain, trauma, and fear but I am glad that we come across each other in this lifetime. We broke up but "Once upon the time, my heart was yours." I love you, a_y
Should have known u never loved me cus u never said “i love you” it’s always “love you”. U said I was controlling, stalking, when all I did was ask for your social acc to follow. U never go out with me until it’s our fifth months together and it was only that one time that u hang out with me. U don’t care when it’s my birthday, u don’t care when it’s our anniversary. U always ignored my chat for hours, days and when I asked abt it u always get offended saying ure busy and stuff. I stopped starting convo cus my texts were ignored anyways. And when I ignored u the same way or worse, u get mad? Did u consider my feeling when I sent 5hrs ago but last active 5mins ago, sent 6 hrs active 30mins..? It was always like that. I endured it all, all of ur bare minimum, breadcrumbing, cus I love you too much to let go. And in the end U decided to abandon me. What’s the point of a relationship when ur partner can’t even discuss anything with u and saying they don’t like conflict? And whats the point when ur partner trust others’ words instead of yours? I wanted to know whether U trust me and u chose to trust them. Did u think I don’t know what they were doing? I just wanted to find out whether u trust or love me at all. And I got what u’ve been thinking all along, u never wanted me. :) U just obeyed. :) Should have noticed when I said “I love you” and u replied “I like you”. And I should have trusted my guts and ended thing earlier when I had to spend Christmas and new year alone. Well guess that’s an experience I should have as I have never been in a relationship. Honestly, I really hope u get ur karma. I hope ur daughter meet s’o exactly just like u so u know my father’s feeling when he decided to let u have me but that’s how I got treated. Not sure if u know who I am but I really hope u do. :) From we’re soulmate to our personalities don’t match.
I know you dont want to be in a relationship. You used to tell me that. It's my fault that i keep falling for you. You're too good to not falling for. You bought me my fav food, bring me to the place I want to go. Late night drive around city, hold hands... You gave me a tight hug, a hug i would never felt the same with anyone else. And now look at us.. we dont even talk anymore... i miss you. I miss your voice, your scent, everything about you. I miss our moment. I dont know what to call it but at least i had you and u're my happy place. At least I got moment... a moment that i'd never forget. 😞 I know we're only had each other for a short period of time but that's so unforgettable... it wasnt long but i know that it was something even there's no way to it. I miss you... i wish we could be us again, forget about anything and be the happy "us" just like we used too... too shy to say but i really hope u stay... #N💓</3
My mom was talking about getting a divorce, and my dad was totally bummed out about it. For like a week I was bouncing back and forth between my mom's place and my house, where my dad was. I tried to cheer him up, but he kept asking about my mom and telling me to talk to her, do something to change her mind. But, to be real, I couldn't bring myself to tell him that she had already made up her mind. So the night before Father's Day I was heading out to crash with some friends, but before I left I told him I'd be back early to make him breakfast. He was like, "Nah, that's cool." Didn't think much of it. That night I hit up a club and drink tonnes of cocktails. After an hour of feeling nothing, I started to feel dizzy and sweaty. My heart was pounding and I was losing it. I asked my friends to take me to the hospital, that something was seriously wrong. They were all, like, "Nah, you're good." Finally, this dude I just met that day, who was friends with one of my homies, drove me to his crib. I was totally freaking out the whole way home, trying to catch my breath and not die. When we got there, my body started to calm down, but I was still super weak and wiped out. I remember lying on his bed. His dog came over and curled up with me, resting his head on my leg and looking all sad. Then, like around 6am, all my friends showed up, apologizing for not taking better care of me. I asked them to take me home, but on the way there I started crying for no reason, just feeling like I needed to go to the hospital. When we got to my house, there was a note taped to the door that said, "Don't go in and call the cops. I'm sorry for being a coward." My heart already felt weak, but when I read that note it just fell apart. I was in shock, but I managed to call the police and tell them my dad had killed himself. I sat on the porch and cried my eyes out. There was a lot of crying that whole day. When my mom showed up, she was wailing and crying out, "Oh my god, oh my god." They took me to the neighbor's house and put me in the guest room. The rest of the day I was all by myself, trying to make it through. There were times when I felt like I was going to pass out. I was too weak to cry. After a while, I realized it was Father's Day.
Your friend left me and let me live with anxiety, and you has the audacity to wishing me a miserable life? You should have know by now that your friend left me alone when I need her the most 🤣 I wish you and your friend live the best life you guys always dreamt of
I met a girl, let's called her M, we date for almost 2 years but we are not in a relationship. We took like 2 or 3 breaks during the time that we talk. And we decided to broke up 2 weeks before we hit 2 years, but we still talk as a friend because before that we aren't even in a committed relationship too. M has a lot of friends even a lot of people want her too because she's a good girl, she's friendly, and she's gorgeous. And I know there's no chance of getting back together because she's talking to a guy that made me completely insecure, they were very close since before we broke up. He's close to her than I am now. I want to meet her but she always denies and she always goes out with that dude and her friends ship her with him too. And now I am seeing another girl which happens to be one of her friends too but they're not that close, So now what should I do should I stay away from her friends or should I or ask her out?? What are the consequences of dating her? what could happen next? what should I do? We went to the same Uni
Is it possible that you love so much you start to hate?