Impossible crush

Are we really can’t moving forward ? I like you at first without expected anything from you I just wanna smile at you wave at you and have a small chit chat and it’s enough for me. But the moment that I know that actually you had been talked to someone. You are in a good stage with her knowing this made me realize that are we really impossible or should I move forward and give it a little try to see is there any hope for me or should I just back off since It’s really impossible for me to be near you. She come first she talk to you first she got your heart and I just having an illusion that you might actually interest in me a little bit but I don’t think so anymore. To conclude , I will try to move forward just a little bit to see if there any hope in us is your heart really fill with her and I will back off immediately if I see there is no chance for me🙂

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Little crushyyy

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Idk

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Missing the old days

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Am I falling in love with him ?

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Barrier

You finally open up. Just like I alway wish for! Because I don’t know where did we go wrong that you choose to push me away and end it. I alway hope that we still have hope. I hope that one day you will realize and resolve thing between us. Because I am sure I don’t deserve it, being push away like that, cut out like that and I am sure I did you nothing wrong. Even if there is, at least we should give it our best shot to make thing better or to make sure that it can’t go on. Don’t true love story at least should end like this? Now that the barrier is open, my wish is granted but my hope is dying once again. Maybe it not going to go as I expected. Maybe you just want to officially show that you have someone new standing in my place.

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I found a better me

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Heartbreak is a karma (Admin edition)

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