I AM NOT OKAY

I thought I’m healed but actually I’m still crying when you pop up in my head. I really miss you, I miss your voice and I miss our late night conversation so bad. I still remember how excited I am when I first met you and still having butterflies feeling when we met. Even we ain’t couple but I love telling you about how my day went but now I have no idea who to share my stories with. It’s crazy when all the things you do to me were so meaningful to me. But I give up now because I know you and her are still in relationship. I AM NOT OKAY.

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crushing

I spend most of my morning thinking about you. My thoughts take me back to the moments when we first met. I remembered how those smiles of yours have captured my heart. I still recall the conversations we had, the laughs we shared, and every other thing that included you in there. Sometimes, I would daydream about you, and I get butterflies. I spend most of my evening wondering if we get to talk. I always wanted to talk to you but was too afraid to approach you. And whenever you texted me, my day just got better. I hope that our paths will cross one day because I want to see you again.

I want him back

fri: heyy! He left, why u still waiting for him Me: coz you only need the light when it’s burning low_ only miss the sun when it start to snow_ only u love him when u let him go. I really miss him so bad and I’m still here waiting u. គេទៅបាត់ទើបស្តាយក្រោយ😢😭 #2016 #English School #Province

“Chill”

No matter what kind of questions I’m bringing up it will only lead to one thing. On how you wanna be with yourself. You can’t tell someone to stop thinking and be chill with you. You make me feel like I’m asking a lot from you, while I only want 1hour to 2 hour of your 24 hour divided into any given time of the day, to do little things that make someone you care about feel a little special. It’s that kind of thing you gave up which means a lot to her. The time that you decided to spare to make her happy, does it make you a little happy to see her happy?

Empty Bin

I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”

Unexpected change

...when it comes to a long distance relationship, communication is the key, they said. as students, we both have a lot of works need to be completed, but at the first few months it kinda work well, we both put efforts, make time for each other, and share almost everything. Times passed, people changed, they start to take things private, talk less or not even talk to each other for weeks,sometimes :), hmmm from every late night call to a good night message, no time for the one that is waiting for their messages and their presence, the one who wants to know whether it was their good or bad day, the one who wish to listen to everything and cheer them up with the sense of humorous>.<. The feeling of one-sided love comes, yet one still trying their best to keep the relationship even they've been through many sleepless nights. People changed with time, but the way you have changed is really far far away from my expectations. Goodnightmymoon❤️

A girl who I wanna be with

Have you ever heard of love at first sight? We have just met for a few weeks, and I have asked for her for her social media account. Then, we started texting each other. Staying with her feel so right. Even though we have only little time to talk and spend with each other, I still wanna be with her…

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