I still love you even we are apart for a long time. I’m still holding up to you. I want us to get back together again just like how brave I texted you, but the word afraid appears every time I think about it. I afraid that we might end up not talking to each other again. I’m glad that we are friend for now even I know this kind of friend just a title.
We both are expecting from each other more than what we both can offer in the relationship. We go through a lot of tough times and I get upset from her sometimes and today she told me to find another one who’s better than her instead of talks things out !
This feeling....... Sometimes I always try my best to make everyone happy but when I'm down, I couldn't find anyone. I'm not always happy as you see my smile on my face, but I always remind myself to calm down and deal with the problems one by one. But when the problems come together, I don't know what the solutions to those problems are. I start to feel stressed out and blame myself. I also start to feel useless. Sitting alone and crying in a silent place are the best solutions that can release my stress. And, I know that if I share all those difficulties in my mind with others, I will feel more relived. However, I could not find anyone to listen to my story, and feel me and support me. And, Sometimes when I tell those problems to others or s.o, they just feel that I'm being so dramatic, but actually, I just want someone to listen to my problem and that's enough for me.
Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?
I don't know how to put it in words, but there's something strange inside me every time I think about you. I admit that I am the kind of person who has many opposite-gender crushes, yet no one ever makes me feel like you do. It's been 9 months now that I just can't stop thinking about you.I will be looking at you and listening to your voice every time I feel unmotivated. I always smile when I see your face through the screen. I take your every sentence seriously and am trying to get to know your point and think through that. You're my inspiration and motivation. At the same time, you've got a place in my heart, my pure heart. I hope that in the future, when I grow older than this, you are still single, so I can make a move lol. In addition, I think I like you or in love with you maybe, idk.
I used to be considered as “ugly” (got bullied for being overweight, etc. even adults used to do that to me :D ) that really destroyed my self esteem. Although, I lost weight and take care of myself and is considered as pretty now but still the permanent mental damages are there. I had developed eating disorder, social anxiety, etc. I fake being confident but the anxiety, the trembling, and panic attack always happened. And because of that anxiety that fear of being judged I think a huge misunderstanding was made. Sometimes I really wish I could just communicate better instead of always being quiet. :)
មកដល់ពេលនេះ វាប្រហែលជាមានរយៈពេលជិត ៧ឆ្នាំហើយដែលខ្ញុំលួចស្រលាញ់អ្នក។ តាមពិតទៅខ្ញុំក៏ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមកាត់ចិត្តពីអ្នក ធ្លាប់ទៅកន្លែងមួយឆ្ងាយដើម្បីកុំអោយជួបអ្នក ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមមើលអ្នកថ្មីជាច្រើនសារ ប៉ុន្តែមនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំនឹកដល់មុនគេនៅតែជាអ្នក។ រយៈពេលកន្លងមកនេះ ខ្ញុំពិតជាចង់ដឹងណាស់ថា អ្នកទុកខ្ញុំជាអ្វី?ដែលមានចិត្តចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? ហេតុអីក៏ធ្វើល្អដាក់ខ្ញុំយ៉ាងនេះ?ហេតុអីក៏ពេលនោះអ្នកមានគេ?ហេតុអីពេលដែលមានគេ អ្នកម្ដងក៏ជាន់ឈ្លឺខ្ញុំ ម្ដងក៏លើកតម្កើងខ្ញុំ? ដែលមានអារម្មណ៍ថាខុសចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? តែខ្ញុំពិតជាគ្មានភាពក្លាហានដើម្បីសួរអ្នកឡើយ សូម្បីតែជួបមុខអ្នកក៏ខ្ញុំមិនហ៊ានផង ខ្ញុំសង្ឃឹមថាថ្ងៃណាមួយខ្ញុំនឹងមានឱកាស យកសំបុត្រការគប់ចំកណ្ដាលមុខអ្នក ហើយក៏សួរថា មានអារម្មណ៍យ៉ាងណាដែរ អតីតមនុស្សជាទីស្រលាញ់
I can’t believe we’ve come this far. We got to know each other; take care each other, share our things, favourite food/drink, favourite songs/movies, our gaols, what we love, what we want…. we also went on adventures together with happiness and love like people in relationship do. But… We choose to be senior and junior. The distance between you and me it never seems to disappear, you and our memories are frozen in my heart. There are many things I don’t want to remember, always remember. If we confessed our feelings before this happened, it shouldn’t be this hard. If you just told me the things you’ve been through, we shouldn’t be strangers like we are right now. 😔 I miss you.
Dear crush, ik ure in love with somebody who ain’t me, yet I hope u’ll never be lonely like u always told me n realize this world as a beautiful place. I hope she’ll take good care of u n I wish u live in this love life ever after. My happiness is seeing u happy. Love u my dearest crush:) #m